42 Blogs?! How Did This Even Happen?

The Story Behind “A Feast For His Beloved”

This blog? This whole blogging thing? It was never the plan.

When I first started the website for A Feast For His Beloved, it was simply meant to be an awareness tool. An event page. A way to let people know what God was doing behind the scenes through events . Not a space for storytelling, and definitely not a blog hub.

But God… He has a funny way of planting seeds in secret and watering them in public!

This isn’t just a blog post. It’s the backstory—how God took something I was trying to keep very private and made it public for His glory.

A Whisper in the Secret Place 🌱

The seed of this whole thing was sown during my secret time with God. That’s where A Feast For His Beloved was born. But it didn’t become public right away. It took six months (and a lot of internal wrestling) before I even touched the “publish” button.

See, the concept of a blog didn’t come from a brainstorm session —it came out of nowhere. At least, it felt like nowhere. Looking back, it was clearly Heaven-sent.

A blog though? Absolutely not.

Funny thing is, I used to blog years ago during my lukewarm days. Yup—under the alias Zamara (beautiful name, I know—it means “praise” in Hebrew). Back then, I wrote about deep stuff like forgiveness, marriage, and heart matters. It was raw. Honest. But super private—only for close friends and people I trusted.

So when the Holy Spirit nudged me to add a blog on the website , I was like:

“Umm… Lord. Events and blogs don’t mix. Plus, who has the time to write blogs every month?!” 😩 Not me. I was just trying to live my quiet life in peace.

Let’s be honest—I didn’t want my name attached to it. I didn’t want people peeking into my life. I live a quiet and peaceful life on purpose.

I had written my first blog on another platform—just to help people understand what it really means to walk with God,  holiness, and the cost of discipleship. The real stuff. Righteousness. Discipline. Surrender. The blog was never  meant to be public.

My Heart Said No, But My Fear of God Said Yes

I wanted my walk with God to remain private, tucked away, safe from opinions and assumptions.

Because let’s be honest—when you start sharing your faith openly, people start talking. “Oh wow, Whitney is a Jesus girl now?” Cue the stories. Cue the side-eyes.

A part of me wasn’t ready to share that part of my life so openly. I still wanted to hide. But then came that verse like a whisper in my heart:

“If you are ashamed of Me before men, I will be ashamed of you before My Father in Heaven.”

Matthew 10:33

That verse checked me real quick. I may be lowkey, but I fear God, so I obeyed. Even if it meant being misunderstood. Even if people would create their own stories.

I took the first blog I had written on the other platform—and posted it on A Feast For his Beloved website. I cringed as I hit publish. Cringed. Because now people would really see. They’d see how serious I was about my walk with God. #Unashamed

Hidden But Found: The Blog Nobody Was Supposed to Read

I remember thinking, Who’s even going to read this? I’m lowkey. Nobody even knows what I’m up to anymore. I didn’t promote it. I didn’t share it. But somehow… people started finding it. I’d see the page views and go up, “Wait… HOW?!”

I just kept writing, quietly. Faithfully. Because I felt led.

And then one day, out of nowhere, I get this message out of the blue, from an old friend I hadn’t spoken to in almost seven years:

“Whitney, old friend—I hope you’ve been well! You crossed my mind and I Googled you and came across your blog (very stalker-ish, I know 🤣). But I really love your posts and more importantly, I’m so happy to see the beautiful work God’s been doing in you. 🥰🫶🏾”

I was stunned.

That’s when I realized: this wasn’t just a blog. This was divine orchestration. God was putting me in people’s minds. God was literally putting me in people’s hearts… leading them to the blog. He was drawing the right hearts to the right words at the right time.

This Isn’t Random. This Is Divine.

So if you’re reading this right now—whether you stumbled here “accidentally” or Googled my name like my old friend—just know: it’s not random. You didn’t find this blog by accident. The Holy Spirit led you here. He has something to say to you, and He’s using me to say it. These are letters from God—I’m just the pen.

42 Blogs Later… Still in Awe

Listen. I never planned to write this many blogs.. To God be the glory—I’ve written 42 blogs. Forty-two! That’s wild to me. I’m just someone trying to obey God, one post at a time.

I don’t know where this is going. I just know I’ll keep writing as He leads. I pray these blogs don’t just inspire you but transform you. I pray they draw you closer to Jesus—not just as a Savior, but as Lord. I pray you become doers of the Word, not just hearers. Because God is so intentional about you! For Him to use a girl like me—one who never wanted to be seen—to write and share this much, and then for you-to find it?

A Final Word from My Heart to Yours

He loves you more than you know. If this blog has blessed you—thank God. Truly. That’s all I ever wanted: for God to get the glory and for someone to be encouraged to follow Him fully. If one day our paths cross, maybe at one of our love feasts or in some unexpected way. I’ll be smiling on the inside, knowing that this was always bigger than me.

Until then… So here’s my encouragement to you:

Be intentional with God.

He’s so intentional about you.

And hey—maybe one day you’ll be the one writing blog #43. 😉

With all my heart,

Whitney

Music time 🎧

🎵Marcus Rogers – “God’s Timing”

Such a good reminder that nothing’s random—God’s timing is perfect, even when it doesn’t make sense to us.

🎵Sound of Salem – “Emmanuel”

This one just hits. Simple but powerful: He is with us. In every high, every low—He never leaves.